Wednesday, May 20, 2015

zion national park video!

i planned a vacation every month of this year, so it probably looks like a perpetual vacation is happening with us... which i'm not mad about.

i made a video about our family Zion trip last week (since i'm still trying to amp up my video skills!) it was such a great trip and we all love this tradish SO MUCH. thanks david & carole for making it happen!!

Zion 2015 from Carla Thorup on Vimeo.

Thursday, April 30, 2015

Disneyland 2K15 dos

the adventure park in california adventure is so great. what a nice escape from the noise and colors of the rest of the park. we spent one full evening in here and the boys were so happy. and it was so fun to have cousin Leo with us during the trip! cousins elevate the magic & the fun.  

and here's uncle Josh. we love this nerd and were lucky to have his presence with us during this trip. even when he poses ridiculously all the time, at least he gives the best shoulder rides to EZ and is a great roller coaster partner ;)
here is the whole group together! David and Carole and Josh came, then our two individual families with the boys (meg's sweet baby maggie rose stayed home.) it was so nice to share the magic with grandparents & uncle as well as have all the extra sets of hands (srsly, so freaking great.) next time we come we're bringing everyone though, because we missed our other people. those mickey light sabers from Bibi were the best things, thanks Carole!!  (also, last time EZ met lightning mcqueen he was so sick cutting molars... and tiny!)

Disneyland 2K15 uno

we spent 4 days at disneyland with some family two weeks ago and i can't stop thinking about it. this trip was everything good and magical and awesome. the boys matched clothes most days and that made it even bettah. and i will forever go to my grave saying how much i love the city select stroller. it's seriously the best. hands down. just like sully's face always, but especially during a parade. i'm sort of going out of order with posts and days and pictures because i need to gather it all up from phones and cameras etc, but i just wanted to start. 

look how my big boy turns into a sweet sweaty baby while sleeping right before the Pixar Parade. the boys took turns sleeping every single day and it was amazing. sullivan clapped all the time when he heard music, was super focused during the parades, and ez just kept waving and waving and hugging (and sometimes groping) all the characters. it was so magical.

Wednesday, April 8, 2015

oh, sullivan.

this baby.
 this baby of mine.
oh sully. he's just the freaking best. recently i've been obsessed with him more than my normal level of obsession. i go through phases like this with each of my children, where i can barely stop myself from eating their faces because i just am not sure i can live one more minute with their cute selves without eating them. it's such a physical reaction that words don't even seem powerful enough to explain the extremeness.

but yes. my sullivan. up until about 5 days ago, he was a caveman. he grunted and growled and roared, but wouldn't make any type of word sounds. he actually still hasn't said his first word, but is barely starting to form actual letter sounds as he babbles. just tonight he was trying to say "boom" with me and laughed hysterically at how silly it all was. like i was making it up that "boom" was a word. it's extremely cute, but the caveman grunts were also amazing. and his OH! he says OH! like it's going to save someone's life. it's ferocious and animated and almost always he's pointing up while he does it. his strawberry blonde hair is wispy but thick and compliments his ocean blue eyes and soft button nose. he still curls his toes most of the time & it makes putting shoes on him difficult.

he crawls like a gorilla still and climbs like one too, but does not seem ready to walk just yet (at least without a walker or hand hold.) he loves to try to sneak into the toilet water, likes to sit on the very top step of any staircase and scare the shiz out of us by bouncing up and down, and will climb anything in front of him. we've nearly found him on the bathroom and kitchen counters when we place a stool just so.

he naps usually twice a day, still wakes up at night too regularly, and has started to panic cry when i'm out of reach when he's tired in public. he seems to be very independent, will solo play for hours, and crawls around public places like he's never heard of germs. by the end of the day he's usually covered in a mixture of all things dirty and slimy and sticky. he lights up in public and around people and seems to be following his extroverted brother's example.

he's asleep right now, but i kind of want to go hug him and smother him like only his smother knows how. heart eyes heart eyes heart eyes.

Friday, April 3, 2015

St. Patty's 2015, he learned what a shamrock is

St. Patty's 2015 was easy peasy greeny and squeazy. Let's just say EZ handled the green milk much better than last year ;) Ha! That WAS funny though. We ate the green food and the lucky charms and wore the appropriate color and then let the boys rest because they were both on their way to getting the roseola virus and feeling miserable for the next four days. But we made a lot of shamrocks and read a St. Patrick's Day book a lot and even learned about St. Patrick himself (he chased the snakes out of Ireland apparently?) And we read green eggs & ham because it just sort of fit. 
And as always, Sully's face.

twenty nine

I turned twenty nine years old 6 months ago and didn't even blog about it. That makes me feel down because I always love looking back on posts I write about myself as an inkling of who I was at that age, and the fact that I didn't even write anything is sad. At least for my narcissistic side. But oh well. These days six months passes and it only feels like a few weeks, so I guess there is and there isn't always time for everything just depending on the day. And even six months late I want to talk about myself and my birthday and so I'll do what I want! And it just so happens that it took me long enough to write this post bit by bit that it's actually my half birthday today, so it's totes cool, bra!

I woke up on my 29th birthday feeling quite a bit of anxiety. Not all of it was negative, but it was definitely present. I had experienced two official anxiety attacks in the last two years and I think it's sort of become part of this current model of Carla. The earlier version didn't have much anxiety, this one does, and maybe future ones won't. It doesn't really feel like a part of me, more like an accessory that I'm not ready to take off. Or can't figure out how. Or need to learn from first. I felt some negative anxiety over the things I can't control and also that I have to be in control more than ever when managing feelings of myself and others (especially my household residents.) Stakes are higher and more to lose and stuff like that. I felt some serious positive anxiety over some of the things I was hoping to accomplish or figure out or just elevating life, because maybe I haven't been playing big enough and this felt like the year to really do something about that. That anxiety also translates into fear or excitement depending on the day.

The day itself was wonderful. October third had lovely weather and lots of sunshine. Donuts first like always, I was given an auto lock for our door which is my most favorite type of present (a practical one!), I wore fancy eyeliner all day, Matt took the day off work and we hit the dinosaur museum with the kids, then we all napped and later that night Matt took me out for a fun meal and a surprise visit to the Desert Start where I was giddy with the bad puns & the atmosphere. It was such a great day and spending time with that man is where it's at. He's the best one for me and wasn't even mad that a goat sitting on a rock topped everything else because I am such a weirdo and saw a goat on a rock and it was just a moment for me. I don't know, can't really explain it but I did take this video right after so we could remember it...

                                       Goat! from Carla Thorup on Vimeo.

Maybe it made you laugh? It doesn't matter, because Matt and I really like to remember it. It was bonding and weird and I'm glad it happened.

The night before my actual birthday we went to laser tag with some neighbor friends and ate tons of ice cream sammys and it was super fun and delicious and my girl Megan and I always laugh this hard. She's a good egg. A Meggan-egg if you will ;)

So there you have it. Twenty nine. 6 months in and I feel pretty good. I am not totally in love with my hair... even though I get so many nice compliments. It doesn't photograph well and if anyone knows anything about me, it's that I take a lot of photos of myself and I need my hair to reflect better. Silly, but not. I feel like I'm comfortable enough being me that I am not afraid to stand up for myself, but also know that I actually know barely anything about this big world and am grateful to be taught by others. I am in a place that sometimes is painful while I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life & where to put my efforts and beliefs... but painful like growing pains that seem ok because they're necessary. I've been physically sick too much in the past six months it's ridiculous, but also in sickness it makes you appreciate the health etc etc so whatever. I'm over getting sick. Matt is an excellent partner. My kids are amazing even when they suck. I have good people around me and a lot of time to spend developing myself & my life & hopefully serving others as well. I feel excited to turn thirty but am trying not to rush it. This twenty nine is good. Solid. I mean, and if anything there was a goat... so I'ma gunna enjoy the rest of the year remembering that and be A-ok.

Thursday, April 2, 2015

easter week

It's easy to get into the spirit of holidays when EZ is around. He lives for making crafts or decorations or things to put on his head. It's one of his love languages. And he commits to whatever character he's playing! Bouncing and grabbing a carrot and making a ftt ftt with his teeth all afternoon. He would not take them off for Costco later that day either, which went juuuuust fine with those delicious carrot cake cupcakes. And Sully couldn't get the headband off because it was pretty snug... which was just sort of a bonus for all of us. EZ drew the faces all by himself and decided he wanted blue everything instead of pink because "blue is just awesome, mom." You can even see the cotton ball tail peeping out on the one of Sully's profile.

And since blue is just awesome, we all wore it to church last Sunday. EZ can't help but grab Sullivan's head aggressively whenever he gets a chance. It's not always well received, but I'll always encourage it anyway. We got two weeks with our blooming magnolia out front this year and she was purty and lovely the whole time. Now she's nearly dead with brown, dead leaves everywhere... so I'm glad we snapped a few with her before her demise.
Cute, huh?

And then ten seconds later EZ was ripping his Sunday clothes off to get into something comfortable and getting in trouble for once again touching Sully's head too aggressively, this time with a sock.

We have three books on rotation about Easter and why we celebrate and it's helping include Christ in all our celebrations. We have a Holy Thursday dinner planned tonight to remember the last supper & the example of service Christ showed, and then a family date to paint some eggs. They've grown so much since last year I bet it can only become more fun each year!