Monday, November 10, 2014

on cleanliness and poop (always poop)

This is not a new problem but instead a perpetual problem it seems, but I can't keep our house clean. We have 1900 square feet and we only live in about 1000 or so of it most of the time because we just aren't in the basement that much... and we LIVE in every square inch. And when we're living in it, there is just no way for it to stay tidied. You know? I wonder if people just have more space than I do and can tuck their messes away? Or I also wonder if maybe I'm just really really bad at cleaning as I go - and therefore it's always messy because I don't possess the skills required to clean as I go? That's probably it. So I have moments of true cleanliness littered with days and days of cluttered mess. It was spotless last night as I went to bed, but right now from my view on the couch I have laundry hanging up to dry all along the banister, and the chairs and ottoman covered in a sheet from our fort today. And like 13 toys littered around the floor. And a diaper bag on the floor. And dishes left on the table from lunch. And a pile of blankets from the car that ended up on record player. It's just crazy. And not to mention we only have 1 main bathroom... so like we do everything in that bathroom every single day and then when guests come over they have to use it too... which is just about the worst thing ever I think. We bathe and poop and bathe the children and make-up and curl hair and everything in there. And please, come in and use our toilet while you step around dirty clothes that we forgot to pick up from this morning's shower and all the tooth paste spatter on the mirror next to the beard hair in the sink. Yes, we should clean it up. But every day all day long? I'd rather just have the mess than have to worry about cleaning it up every second. I can't function like that.

But then I know people who can't function with how I live... and I wonder if I can be taught? Pick up some new skills to actually help me with the day to day instead of piling it all up and living in filth for days before the clouds break and a ray of clean sunshine sheds down on the house (but only for a tiny bit of time. And I mean tiny.) I bet there's a book out there I should be reading.

And then there's poop. Too much of my life revolves around poop. Yours too? I bet. The world sort of revolves around poop in some form... and this week has just felt like too much poop. Sully, who has always been a very limited pooper & almost too solid when he does do it, has suddenly been hit with a stomach bug that has caused massive blow-outs for days now. And thankfully EZ uses the toilet because he's had the runs and it's just been on and on. It's fine, I know this will eventually pass... but like, I'm pooped from it. Ha! I love puns.

Sorry to talk so much about poop. I don't actually like talking about gross things, it's just life right now and so that's what I have going for us. That and puke, because we had a lot of that last week too. But funny thing is that an 8 month old's puke is still mild because he just doesn't eat that much, and a 3 year old is capable of holding a bowl and puking into it, so messes to clean up really weren't much and so I'm stuck on the poop portion and not on the puke portion which is a blessing I'm not stuck on both portions? Who knows. This is going on too long and I apologize for all the liquidy descriptions. Bodies are so gross sometimes.

And how about this photo of us from back in September? I like Sully's face the most, and you can really see EZ's sweet wonky eye in this one... but it's just us on some random day wasting the time away taking photos. It's what we do. I bet someone pooped after this too. #life

Friday, November 7, 2014

my man, the redbeard!

Since Matt released his video tutorial back in September (Intro to ZBrush & Character Design), he's been hustling and working hard and making things happen as the Redbeard! We've known for a while, but it's finally been released on their site that Matt has been invited to do two live presentations at the CTN Conference in Berkley, CA later this month! It's like, a really big deal. It's a HUGE conference for the animation/graphics world and he'll be doing a live ZBrush demonstration on two different days (along with mingling with some of the best in his industry!) And I'm tagging along so we can spend some time at the D-land and have some alone time without our kids too! Yeaaaaaah.

^THAT'S MY HUSBAND, YO.^ I'm so freaking proud of him and happy for him and for us and just excited about all the possibilities of the future! And along with all the good feelings, I'm also slightly terrified. But like, mostly in a good way? I have noticed (and it's been pointed out after I've been a total turdbucket) that I'm not always the best at being his biggest cheerleader because I'm in the trenches next to him. It's astounding sometimes how much work it takes to make good things happen, you know? I put my foot in my mouth and let the stresses of reality overcome me & then end up saying the wrong things or not showing enough enthusiasm as I actually feel. Not because I don't mean it, but because sometimes I'm so busy doing every day life that I forget to tell him. But I want to take a moment to get out of the trenches and CHEER HIM ON right now. Because hot damn! He's AMAZING. And he's damn hot!

Matt is so talented. He's always been into art (like we have drawings of us as 16 year olds), but in the last 8 years he has cultivated it into a true passion & has worked so hard to make it into something where he can make money & support our family while also feeling fulfilled as a creator. That's a big deal! Artists are too often poor & struggling (and like, we are too still... but hopefully not for forever, you know?) and he's hustling every day to make his & our dreams come true. It's amazing to watch him create and it's downright inspiring to see him become better each day as he practices (and practices and practices and.... you get the idea.) He believes in himself and pushes himself and is very internally motivated to always try new things and become a better artist. 

It's sometimes crazy to discuss what happens next in his career because it could mean very large changes/moves/situations in our future, but I know as long as I can snug up to that scratchy bearded man every night, then everything... is gonna be alright, man.

I LURVE YOU MATTICUS. Proud is understating how I feel about you, because it's bigger and badder than that. It's more like buttermilk that has like, been in your fridge for a while... and you aren't sure what to do with it so you keep it...  but like the opposite? HAHA. That's an inside joke and I'm so glad I remembered it. 

Sunday, October 19, 2014

october could last forever

October has been slaying it this year. The weather! The activities! The all around vibes it's throwing down! All of it has been really spectacular. These photos are from a walk around our 'hood last Sunday when the light was perfect and the hats a plenty. EZ has almost stopped ignoring Sully at least 50% of the time and it's really cute to see them get all up in each other's face. I'm still thankful for the other 50% of time when he ignores him (hey! at least he's not being mean to him!) I love the pictures of Matt and the boys together so much. And that picture of Sullivan on the swing with the sun flare? Oh baby, let me nuzzle that face! EZ moves too much most of the time to get many photos of him, but look at the sass he's tossing around! This very first picture on the left might be my favorite of the bunch simply because it's just so classic. EZ looking all dramatic because we didn't do what he wanted exactly how he wanted us to, and then Sully just happily smiling in the background. Mmmmm. I like these punks.  

And in a matter of seconds, Sully lets us know it's time to go home and get ready for bed. Kid knows what he wants!

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

a day in the life of EZ Red

It only takes a few minutes for this kid to change his 'stume and his 'tude all day every day. I never knew a kid could love dressing up & getting into character so much, but it is thrilling trying to keep up. My favorite is how often he does it without pants! So risqué.

Thursday, October 2, 2014


One of the greatest pleasures of my life will be watching my babies sleep. Because the boys share a bedroom and EZ still naps (at least half of the time), Sullivan ends up napping on my bed. This particular day he stayed sleeping while I repeatedly kissed his lips and face over and over. His skin smells of baby and he's softer and squishier than anything in the world. I never want to forget how that blue elephant soothes him and how his resting mouth is turned down just a tiny bit as he sucks in his bottom lip.